Where you live this might not be your reality, but for me here in Canada I take every advance to enjoy my meals outside. This morning was no exception; I eat breakfast while delighting in the buzz of nature all around me. It is a constant source of gratitude that I get to do this so often during the spring, summer and fall. Of course the dress code changes with the season from high summer in my uniform of T’s and shorts to the spring and fall sweatshirts and pants right through to the last possible days before the patio furniture is safely moved to storage when an overcoat might be needed to enjoy one last breakfast.
Inspiration seem to come flooding into me with the sunshine. Ideas percolate in the lazy summer heat, or come in a flash of fragrant spring air, or float gently down like fall leaves.
Which brings me to a quote to start our time together today.
Under all the senseless thoughts and mad ideas with which you have cluttered up your mind are the thoughts that you thought with God in the beginning.”
Source: A Course in Miracles
Isn’t that beautiful….” the thoughts that you thought with God in the beginning.”
I’m not sure about you, because each of us reacts differently to the sweet cadence of words…some of them cluttered up in our minds with perhaps unpleasant associations, but for me that phrase, “the thoughts that you thought with God in the beginning” stir up a multitude of emotions ranging through joy, a sense of deep companionship and belonging, a thrill of unimaginable adventures, the serenity and peace of wholeness, a sense of perfection, with no flaws to bring shame or anxiety.
And of course, under all the senseless thoughts and mad ideas about ourselves that we’ve tramped into thick neural pathways in our brains, which have conditioned us to think in an evidence based universe is the truth we have hidden away from ourselves.
We are all a slice of that perfection, we truly have no flaws, blemishes, no aching needs, no pain, no suffering.
Linda Martella-Whitsett put in like this:
Wholeness is our true nature, our essence, our key to displaying our life faculty. Wholeness means that nothing essential is missing. We are complete, containing all necessary components.
Source: Divine Audacity: Dare to Be the Light of the World page 192
Perhaps we ask ourselves why it is so hard to live in that truth?
I saw a glimmer of the answer this morning.
You see as we do the work…and our work is to return to our truth, to our god beingness, we begin to walk away from our defenses, our places of supposed safety and security, thus exposing what we consider our vulnerable undersides.
So when I spotted, this morning, a way of being, a conditioned reflex that I’ve been using since I was about four or five years old, a way of attracting a certain response from others, and I understood that I now need to stop using that worn neural pathway, and create a new way of being (we all have this ability by the way but seldom use it consciously) I found myself stepping into the unknown without a map. That’s scary.
If you use a forest as an analogy, and all your life you’ve walked through this forest following a well-defined path, which over the years with repeated footsteps became a lane-way so clear that you didn’t have to think about where you were in the forest…all you had to do was follow the path. Then one day you head out to walk through the forest to your grandmother’s house, and suddenly discover the path is gone and you have no idea where you are. Not only that but you realize you have no idea why you are going to grandmother’s house because she hasn’t lived there for years.
For me this fear bubbled up with all kinds of questions about how I would now live my life and how it would change the way I live. Not only that but the magnitude of the “work” to prune the old neural network and lay down something new, more in line with the “thoughts you thought with God in the beginning just overwhelmed me.
“The old self has to die for the new self to be reborn. Of course that feels uncomfortable! But that’s okay., because that unknown is the perfect place to create from–it’s the place where possibilities exist. “
Source Joe Dispenza You Are the Placebo: Making Your Mind Matter
And yet…. there is a joy in fearlessness, and excitement in a new adventure, and the reward of rediscovering “those thoughts you thought with God in the beginning.”
It may seem hard at first glance, but honestly, isn’t it easier than living with all the senseless thoughts, and mad ideas we have about ourselves?
The great paradox is that what we thought was the easy, what looks like the easy, what seems like the easy way very often leads us to creating a life that couldn’t be more opposite of easy. And inversely the things that we thought were most difficult, the challenges that appear to be the toughest, and the requirements that seem most rigorous are the very activities that lead us to the life of easy that we all want.”
Source: Rory Vaden You Are the Placebo: Making Your Mind Matter
Practices to Help You Rediscover Your Wholeness
1. I took the liberty of reworking the Martella-Whitsett quote above into an affirmation to add to a daily practice. Read aloud to yourself each morning, and repeat when you need a reminder throughout the day.
Wholeness is my true nature, my essence, my key to displaying my life faculty. Wholeness means that nothing essential is missing. I am complete, containing all necessary components.
With gratitude to Linda Martella-Whitsett. Source: Divine Audacity.
2. Journal about an area of your life where you do not think you are whole; a character flaw, or personality trait you feel makes you less that whole. How could you look at that trait from the viewpoint of your wholeness.?
3. Find a meditation on wholeness that fits with your schedule and practice this each day for a week. Here is a suggestion: https://youtu.be/ki0rUEyM1Dg
4. Reduce your exposure to TV, most notably news shows, especially 1 hour before you go to bed.
5. When your thoughts stray toward imperfections: use a pattern interrupt, like the word “stop”, or “change”.
I encourage you to comment on your personal experience. What worked best for you. Did you have another practice to help you recognize or connect with your divine wholeness?
Live in Joy
© 2016 Nick Grimshawe